For now

"People sleep peaceably in their beds at night only because rough men stand ready to do violence on their behalf." - George Orwell
I just ran across this quote and it struck me - how surreal and true this quote is. It is brilliant. Although, George Orwell clearly stated that he never actually mentioned such words; this quote is quoted as being said by him. So, it is so. The alternative to this quote, which was, in fact, actually said by Winston Churchill is "We sleep soundly in our beds because rough men stand ready in the night to visit violence on those who would do us harm." Both of these quotes are very powerful. The thought of fear, as in fear for my actual life in a life or death sense, hasn't crossed my mind in a long time. And now, I can see this. We never think of this because we never have to face it and never have to think of its possibilities. There are those who take the responsibility of putting a wall around us: to comfort us, to make us smile, to make our future a possibility, to fulfill our desires, to live. They are soldiers. I must say, I've never cared for soldiers because they are just there. I though of it as 'stupid people' who just go and die out of their own will. When, in fact, they die for me and for you. They die or kill so that me and you never have to think of it. They demolish the possibility of people getting hurt. I have no idea what soldiers are like or what they do, but since this quote I because acknowledged that they are our protectors.

So, I am officially finished with my finals. Now, I have to pray that I've passed Biology and Chemistry. I did my part studying on Sunday, I did wake up at 8:30 and I did study all day. This was my first day I've actually completed something that I wanted to do with a plan in mind. I am proud of myself.

On another note, I plan to read the assigned psychology pages that I haven't got to reading during the semester.

That is all, I shall go watch movies and enjoy 3 weeks of deciding.